Isabel (ES), 41, Musician, Sant Just Desvern/Spain

14/06/2020

"Suddenly I realized that I had become so used to being at home that I didn't feel like going out anymore."

The last days before the quarantine back in March, I lived with a view of what was happening in Italy, since my husband is Italian, but actually everything was quite normal. A week before the lockdown, I was still playing in the Auditori in front of 2000 spectators. Then, however, I thought that this could not go on for much longer and that it was only a matter of days. But I still wasn't worried or took any special precautions.

Obviously the Spanish government has not reacted properly to the crisis. I think they should have been a little more anticipatory in terms of purchasing medical equipment, masks, tests, protective clothing ... I think they were too optimistic and just too self-righteous in their big self-confidence.

Since I have three children, the day in quarantine evolved around them and my work. My husband and I worked alternately. The other helped the children with their homework, we did various activities and tried to do sports every day. I was able to do my lessons normally via video calls, but logically many concerts were canceled and I don't know how or when a certain normality can resume in this field. At the weekends we always did something different to interrupt the routine, for example serving a particularly nice snack on the balcony. My biggest challenge in this situation was to get the children to accept the situation and maybe even enjoy it.

What did I miss the most? To have time for myself, to see my mother and friends and that my children could play with other children.

I am not too afraid, but I am concerned about the economic crisis that the pandemic will entail and I worry about the people who may have a hard time because of it. I am afraid of getting infected before I see my mother or my in-laws again and then infecting them too. During the lockdown, I was afraid about what we should do if we had a medical emergency ourselves, when the health system had completely collapsed.

However, I can also see something positive in this crisis. Personally, I enjoyed spending a lot of time with my family and having time to do things that I usually can't do. The situation has forced me to develop material for my classes that I will certainly use when we return to face-to-face classes.

What will I remember from this special time ... the strange feeling of going outside in a dystopian environment. Also, how strange it was when I suddenly realized that I had become so used to being at home that I didn't feel like going out anymore. And the imagination we showed when we had to do sports at home.

As to my future plans - in the short term - I want to enjoy meeting friends, family, the beach and the sea. In the long term I want to travel again as much as possible and as much as they allow us.

I think the pandemic will certainly have an impact on the world. I think we will recognize that we are vulnerable and we will certainly be a little more careful.

Los últimos días de marzo antes de la cuarantena viví pendiente de lo que occuría en Italia, ya que mi marido es italiano, pero con normalidad. Una semana antes del confinamiento estaba tocando en el Auditori con 2000 personas en el público. Imaginaba que eso no podría durar mucho, que era cuestión de días. Pero no me preocupé ni tomé precauciones especiales.

Obviamente el gobierno español no ha reaccionado correctamente. Creo que deberían haber previsto un poco a nivel de material sanitario, mascarillas, tests, epis... Creo que se pecó de exceso de confianza y optimismo.

En cuarentena, como tengo tres hijos, el día giraba en torno a ellos y a mi trabajo. Mi marido y yo nos turnábamos para trabajar. El otro ayudaba a los niños con el cole, hacíamos actividades, intentar hacer deporte cada día. He podido hacer mis clases con normalidad, pero lógicamente se han suspendido muchos conciertos y no sé cómo ni cuándo se podrá retomar una cierta normalidad en ese aspecto. Los fines de semana hacíamos algo diferente para romper con la rutina, por ejemplo, un buen aperitivo en el balcón. Mi mayor desafío en esta situación fue conseguir que los niños aceptaran la situación y incluso la disfrutaran.

Lo que más extra extrañé? Tener tiempo para estar sola, ver a mi madre y a mis amigos y que mis hijos pudieran jugar con otros niños.

No tengo demasiado miedo, pero sí me preocupa la crisis económica que esto va a provocar, y la gente que lo pueda pasar mal. Me dará miedo contagiarme cuando vuelva a ver a mi madre o mis suegros y les pueda contagiar a ellos. Durante el confinamiento me dio miedo tener algún problema de salud con el sistema sanitario colapsado.

Sin embargo puedo ver algo positivo de la crisis. A nivel personal he disfrutado de pasar mucho tiempo en familia teniendo tiempo para hacer cosas que normalmente no puedo. La situación me ha obligado a desarrollar recursos para mis clases que seguro que también usaré cuando volvamos a las clases presenciales.

Qué recordaré de esa época en particular... la sensación tan rara de salir a la calle en un ambiente distópico. También lo raro que me pareció el darme cuenta de que ya me había acostumbrado tanto que no tenía ganas de salir. Y la fantasía que tuvimos que usar para hacer deporte en casa.

Ahora, mis planes futuros son - a corto plazo - disfrutar de los encuentros con amigos, familiares y de la playa y el mar. A largo plazo, cuando se pueda, volver a viajar todo lo que pueda y nos dejen.

Creo que seguro que sí la pandemia tendrá efectos en el mundo. Creo que nos daremos cuenta de que somos vulnerables y seguramente seremos algo más precavidos.